Before I got my period I didn't really know what it was. I first got it when I was still very young and nobody had told me anything about it. I didn't know how it worked, what it meant and how it would affect my life. I was the first girl in my class to get it. I remember feeling a bit weird that day. I was a little bit afraid but I also felt important. I told myself: "Yes, I am a grown up now." But what did "being a grown up" mean exactly? Why did it hurt so much? What was "a period"? With time, I had to find my own answers.
Ever since I was a child, my period has always been quite intense and comes stomping, even the days before I get it.
As you know, I am a very sexual and sensitive person and the week before I get my period, all my feelings and desires are enhanced. I become more aware of my body, my thoughts, my emotions, my energies... my whole self. This awareness makes me feel more energetic and more sexual and I need to find ways to clench my thirst. I use those moments to enjoy myself to the fullest.
Even though I have a calendar to keep track of my period, it's not always very regular. Some times I get it a few days before I'm supposed to, or a few days later.
When I finally get it, it's usually quite painful. I can barely move and I feel bloated but I still feel pretty. I have learnt to enjoy how I look in those moments. All I want is to give and receive affection.
Despite the pain, I feel cuddly and sensitive.
My period pain is neither good nor bad for me, but that doesn't mean it's easy. It's my process. In my case, I am aware that it is influenced by everything I experience during my last cycle, whether on a physical, energetic or emotional level.
The first days, I take some time for myself. While I am on my period I try to rest and keep on experimenting with my sexuality. I do it on my own as well as with other people. I don't hide my bleeding. It's a good moment to get rid of social prejudices, as it's something completely natural and nothing to be ashamed of.
Those days my sex drive might decrease a little bit but I always find ways to keep it up because I know it's good for me.
This is how I live my process. Of course, this is only how I experience it.
Each person is unique and people have very different experiences with their period. It's very personal and how they feel about it depends on many things, such as their lives, their personalities and their characteristics.